Hmm- its funny how comfortable I seem to be here at school. I mean its to be expected but yea, this is quickly becoming quite the asylum for me.

asylum, a word thats been given such a negative term these days...

Anyway, where was I? Oh yes; Talking about new home. Well yep that sums it up. things, as per their usual, are entirely intollerable at home.

Pete and Marco are eating everything, my mother's working herself to death, nobody stops drinking, and my sisters becoming just as bitter and depressed as me. The later of it all is what really irks me. I'm used to this shit, I've been dealt this crap for 20 years now-- but to have my baby sister catch this kind of upbringing?

Now I know I've never been the best of older brothers in the past, but at least now days I try and do what I can to protect her. at the end of the day its like mi ama' says: she's all I got.

So yea- when I have to go home to a drunken father who treats us like crap, and two freeloading fuck heads who are bleeding us like oversized pariahs while I have to watch my sister risk not having anything to eat for the night...

Ye gods- just seems to make me want to take a shovel to someone's head.

Now granted I'm doing everything in my power to try and help out with things now. I'm still busting my ass for work, having just applied to Junior's smoke house and burger king for ANY and ALL positions available. Hopefully I'll be working a full time gig there on the side of school. I still have my court date for the thefts at Target coming up on the 29th to worry about -_-; I need like 300$ for that on minimum.

I just pray to god that Martin, Jani and I's lawyer, doesn't turn out to be a bloody Lionel Hutz.