God damnit. I really am sick with dealing with the mass of problems thrown at me every day and not having a fucking outlet. No matter what I do the anger never seems to seep away anymore. Its threatening to tear me apart! ugh, regardless, its always nice to be able to count on some friends to flake out on you, or better yet demean the value yourself in comparison to them self or their current petty problem.

now look- theres several of my friends who have legit problems and I truly feel for them and try my best to help them out but theres a pathetic majority whom I would love to smack em around for being stupid.

But in the end I'm tired of being angry- tired of feeling like crap lately. theres been little joy to partake of and even the fun stuff I do only leaves a fleeting euphoria. My mood falls to pieces as soon as a snag comes up and I get even angrier realizing that I caved to these pissy moods.

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